It was the end,
and all I could think was:
"No Lord! Please!
I'm too young to die,
and I haven't finished sewing
that widow's dress.
And who else will lead
my neighbour to Christ,
and answer her questions,
or continue to teach
these women your word?
I'm too young to die!
Don't take me yet!"
But it was the end,
and there I was, dead,
and all these things
torn from my hands -
How could I forget
that they are in yours,
that even without me
you still work on?
My time is held
in your capable hands -
can't I trust you to know
better than me where it ends?
It did not end there
for you still have a plan for me.
You brought me back,
but now I think
I've finally come
It was the end
of looking at me,
and the beginning
of looking at you,
at you to plan my life and work,
and take it someday from my hands,
a day that only you can choose,
at just the time that you know best.
It is not my work,
it is yours,
so lead me now
to do your will,
and give me strength to let it go
and trust that you are in control.
Dorcas is one of the less-known women of the Bible - she only appears in Acts 9:36-43 but there already one can get an idea of who she was. She was a
Christian lady who helped widows by making clothes for them. I imagine
her as the kind of missionary who teaches poor women how to
self-support, and at the same time passes on the Gospel - through the
life she leads, through the good things she does to them, and through
telling them about Jesus.
And then she died! I tried to imagine
what she'd be feeling - and so this poem actually reflects what went
through my head in all the "oh no I think I'm going to die and I don't
want to" moments (e.g. whenever I think the plane I'm in is going to
crash... really stupid moments actually).
The conclusion I came to, after all those (unnecessary) worries, was: God will only let me die if it's really the right time.
I won't be "missing" something He'd have wanted me to do, because He
won't let me go before. And when I do die, it will be when I've done
what God wanted me to do. Actually, some old people see comfort in the
fact that God still keeps them alive not to torture them but because He
still has a plan for them.
And that's why Dorcas was brought to
life again - because God still had more plans. But also, through that
miracle, many people believed! Sometimes God can use even death to show